Jena Tracey, 35, shares what it was like getting an unexpected diagnosis and how she's persevered through intense treatment for a rare leg sarcoma.
I pride myself on being very active. I practice yoga and Pilates, and cycle regularly. My two children, Theo and Bennett, are my world. Other than giving birth to them, I had never been admitted to a hospital, had any type of scan, or dealt with any health hurdles – until I had cancer.
My journey with cancer began last spring, when I discovered an unusual lump on the back of my left knee after hopping off my bike. I didn’t think much of it at first. It wasn’t causing me any pain or keeping me from moving, it just felt funny. My husband thought it must’ve been some type of cyst.
Whatever it was, I knew it wasn’t supposed to be there, so I reached out to my sports medicine doctor right away.
An Unexpected Diagnosis
I sought answers through sports medicine, and I had imaging done. It took a few months of advocating for myself, but an MRI finally revealed it was a soft tissue mass. After meeting with an oncologist, I had my answer: this unexpected lump was a rare cancer known as synovial sarcoma.
I think most people facing a cancer diagnosis will say they’re in shock; this is an understatement. It truly is hard to put into words what goes through your head in that moment. I walked into an appointment, in relatively good health, and I walked out as a cancer patient.
It’s an incredibly pivotal time, figuring out how to cope with cancer while still living your daily life. All I could think about were my family and children. I knew this was about to change my world – for the better or the worse. I chose to focus on the better.
In July, I started six rounds of inpatient chemotherapy at Thomas Jefferson University Hospital, under the care of Dr. Atrayee Basu-Mallick. In three-week increments, I spent five days in the hospital for 24-hour-long infusion. I was away from my family for a total of 34 days. Because of COVID-19 protocols, my kids couldn’t visit, but my husband could. He was my hero. He juggled a full workload, kept the kids safe and entertained and made sure I was well taken care of.
I was fortunate to not endure many side effects from the chemo. I owe this to staying hydrated, working out in between, and resting as much as I could once I got home. I did my best to truly nurture my body with what it needed to rebound.
After chemo, I rested for a few weeks to let it finish doing its job, and then I started 25 sessions of radiation therapy at the Sidney Kimmel Cancer Center – Washington Township with Dr. Tamara LaCouture. After experiencing such an intensive inpatient chemo, this felt easy.
My Cancer Coping Tools
Looking back, it’s hard to believe I underwent all of this. There’s so much fear going into cancer treatment, but I was determined to be the strongest and bravest I’ve ever been.
When battling cancer, you enter a sort of “survival mode,” but you also still have to balance other areas of your life. It was inevitably hard on my body – but I knew it was going to be – and I just tried to approach each day as it came, moment by moment.
I also knew that treatment was necessary in order to get better. In the beginning, it took a lot of self-pep talks, telling myself, “You’re going to be OK. You will get through this.” Other people can tell you this, but if you don’t believe it yourself, it’s a lot harder.
Personally, distractions were something I relied heavily on. I knew they’d make the days, however hard, go by faster. Whether it’s working, socializing, or picking up a new hobby, focusing your mind on something else can be incredibly helpful. My job allowed me to work remotely throughout treatment, which kept me busy. I also continued to work out, and through exercising virtually, I connected with an amazing group of people who served as an additional support system.
Additionally, I learned a new way to focus my mind. Meditation was crucial during radiation, which required that I lay completely still. Instead of spending that treatment time with my mind racing, I learned how to clear it. So, essentially my radiation sessions served two healthy purposes – to target my cancer, but also to improve my mental wellness.
Approaching the Finish Line
The only true cure for a synovial sarcoma mass is surgery, so that’s my next step. Because my mass is on the larger side, we opted for a more aggressive treatment to be as proactive and preventative as possible – to ensure the cancer didn’t spread.
Fortunately, it is still localized, and I’ll have it removed in a few weeks. Our goal is to remove the mass and any affected tissue; however, my surgeon, Dr. John Abraham, will have to assess how much damage has been done, in case a more intensive approach is needed.
Physically, I’ve experienced some minor changes, including weight gain and fatigue, but, overall, I feel strong. Mentally, it’s daunting to approach the finish line. I’m hitting a “this is it” moment, questioning if surgery will do the trick.
There’s fear of the unknown, but I will accept it and focus on what I do know – the positives.
If I were to offer any advice to those new to their own cancer journey, it would be to embrace the help of your caretakers – whether it’s your medical team, family, or friends. It’s okay to rely on others for support. Every single nurse, physician, and staff member has helped guide me along the way.